on the way...

flawed-
containing a mistake, weakness, or fault

we all are aren’t we?

i had a good conversation this past week with my boyfriend about having a hard time forgiving others but also ourselves. my boyfriend is a youth intern at a church and this was his topic of discussion for the week. He was having trouble with his topic and came to me for help. Before we knew it we found ourselves engulfed in a deep discussion.

It brought out the best of us…or the worst, depending upon how you want to look at it. ( the purpose behind our discussion was to see the real "us," flaws and all. i ended up sharing many stories about my past, where i learned to forgive myself but also stories where i still need to learn to forgive. the more i talk about my past the more i strive to never go back to the person i once was.

in 2 Corinthians 12:9a it says, "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

His grace is for me. it’s clearly stated. in our weakness’ He has strength.

flaws shaped me into who i am today. some of my flaws have caused me to put up barriers while others have helped me grow, but i am thankful for them all.

i still have plenty of days where I make mistakes and falter, but i look at it all differently now. i want God to be proud of me, as well as my family and those who surround me. i want to be a person of integrity and humbleness. i know I have been told I have an overly honest personality
but like i said to one of my sisters the other day, " i would much rather be overly honest, than a person who is getting caught up in their own lies." i never want to go back to that person I once was-and am thankful for the position God has enabled me to be in. a few weeks ago when i was at a concert i had a young girl confront me on a situation going on at her school, i knew God had brought this girl to me for a reason. i listened to what the young girl had to say and saw a child of God who needed some advice and guidance. being in a much similar situation as hers I was able to take what I learned and help guide her down God’s path. I find myself blessed with the opportunity to speak to young girls one on one at concerts and tell them about my past in hopes that they will learn from my flaws. I was blessed and am so thankful for these encounters in my life.

Ephesians 2:10
"For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

i am learning day by day to solely and completely depend on God. it’s good to know about our flaws because it helps us lean on God and drives us to become a better person.

challenge-tell the truth in all situations…use your faults as tools to help others

this is my journey, this is my story, this is my life….kb