topic of discussion today: hanging on
had a good discussion over supper last night about how i view different situations in life. if you know me i tend to be quiet and in thought often...don't take it as me being someone i'm not-that's just my personality. i am opinionated, and can be honest and straight forward, but who says what's right and wrong-only God in my opinion.
anyway i started thinking about my past-and how i may still be hanging on to things but yet know i'm so much more than that. i can't look at other's sin's and think mine is nothing compared to theirs. all sin's are the same in God's eyes. i realize holding on to what has helped me grow is all that i should be hanging on to, all the rest can well-just go!
God knows my anxious heart-i think that's why He test's my patience...to keep me dependent on Him in ALL situations. God is the only person that know's me better than myself-scary thought but SO true. I have experienced pain, joy's, and all the in between's and it's made for the "hanging on" moments which sometimes need to be let go. but God is working in my heart more than anyone, but Him, will ever know. change is hard for me but not this one-it is much needed!
i feel love, i feek grace, and God stole me heart this past year. thankful-so much! i learned to be happy for who i was, my independence, and my family. i have been learning and still struggle with putting other's before myself, but change takes time. change take's prayer, devotion, and a steady heart in Jesus.
i see now in my own life what i don't want for so many young girls. talking to a room of teenagers over the weekend was a blessing. hearing stories and situations where people have to be vulnerable is important-it's how we grow. nothing in life comes easy if it's something we really want. why?...God designed us so that we fall on Him. Smart man Jesus is!
so... what am i still hanging on to? -only the good stuff. i am learning to let my heart be open to new possibilities and life changes. why? cause im ready. in God's time, and His will i'll see what He has set out for me, and maybe that just requires me digging in a little deeper and getting to know this big heart God gave me better.
proverbs 3:5-6
trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.
always depend on Jesus. hang on to the moments that only make you a better person.
this is my journey, this is my story, this is my life...
kb
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