want to know something....i am not a fan of being a public speaker, actually i would much rather sing alone for a crowd of 5,000 all alone than have to open my mouth and speak.
BUT....my life isn't about what I want to do, it's about God's will and i need to be obedient and do just that.
as i prepare for a weekend of speaking, singing, and worship i have had a lot of time to pause and reflect on what God really wants me to say. i struggle with fears and worries about not being able to say what i want and staying relaxed. i struggle with rejection and curiosity on how the crowd will take what we all have to say.
purity. ya-not always an easy topic to speak on but i honestly feel like God has called me to do it. i have been on a bumpy path and have so much on my heart to talk about but yet worry. i can only pray God will fill my mouth with the words He needs these young girls to hear. you see we were told going into this event this weekend that a girl from this group tried to justify that it's ok to have sex before marriage. it's not. and i can only hope i am able to plant a new seed and a new view on how GOD views sex, love, and marriage.
so a verse i plan on sharing...
romans 6:1-2
"well then, should we keep on sinning so that God can show us more and more of his wonderful grace? of course not! since we have died to sin, how can we continue to live in it?"
proverbs 4:23
"above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."
i pray this weekend brings challenges so i can be used for God's kingdom. i pray for Jesus' to speak through me, and i pray the girls that come to the conference this weekend come with open hearts.
this is my journey, this is my story, this is my life...
kb
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